11:01 PM | Thursday, November 30, 2006
it matters.
went to meet junfei and co. at yishun.damn man,my phone connection got error,don't know what happen.till when nic's phone also got connection error.think something must have happen at singtel.but my mum's phone have no effect,still as usual.nevermind.then only nic and junfei there.so go to soccer court.met sirbest,esther and sharlyn there.played till 7 plus.alright,i kinda worn out.i am tired.very tired.i need rest,but tomorrow still got carnival,guess i will rest next week.i said before this week is a tough week.i guess its a tiring and tough week.tough because i need to like get over thats she's in taiwan and always thinks she's in singapore.tiring,don't need say luh,look at my activities day in day out.okay.nevermind,tomorrow is the day.its not important as under-19s.but i am still very excited in the very first carnival i take part.i want to get top four,impossible,but yet i still stands a chance.okay,i going off soon.i need sleep for tomorrow's competition.i sleeping early today.bye people!goodnight!i somehow felt in love with you.but i am not sure.please don't stop talking to me,i need to talk to you.i really love you,please don't ignore me.no place that far.
12:51 PM |
tomorrow!
i see seems like blogging three times a day.haha!yesterday my tagboard somehow very lively.my highest record of people tagging in a day.(:thanks for people tags my board!okay,haha.woke up around 11 plus.i guess that piggy esther is still sleeping again.haha.haven't reply my msg!anw,later going out with sirbest,junfei,nic(maybe),esther and sharlyn.i am bored lah!i need rest,but staying at home doesn't help much.but i guess i will reach home earlier today.tomorrow is the day where i want to win,not lose.but i need somehow myself,to get over this,fear of playing against top teams.like northland,but yeah,i know this something i need to play for.the prize.i know somehow the strongest player in the squad is me(i am not bhbing),but yes,through competition experience,i am with the most.but i am not with my best form so far,rahh.nevermind,i don't want to mention anymore.i am just excited for tomorrow match.any supporters?haha,kidding luh.okay,blog later people!you left and my heart had a big hole to mend it back.no place that far.
1:22 AM |
changi airport.
haha.okay,i am damn tired.went tution,i did my tution homework on the train.everybody is like looking at me.nevermind.after tution,met gary,jer and steven at khatib.took 969 to tampines.ate at century square foodcourt.headed to changi airport after that.we were like wow,everybody wearing long pants!haha.victor says that they were the only four sec twos guys going.victor,mengchao,jianyi and charles.yup.they all the people going to miyazaki.amelia,its going to be your turn soon!next week to hokkaido right?jer,gary and me.we all promise to go next year!its hokkaido for upper sec.SP and assumption eng skool going to miyazaki too.had a photo taking day!upload the photos later or tomorrow i guess.i am rather excited for the carnival.team sexyback!whos that?hahaha.only pearlin and some other people will know!whenever i go airport,there's this feeling.very nice and comfortable feeling.yeah,but somehow insecurity feeling.i don't know lah,feels very good.when they about to leave,i feel like going with them too.i pity one of the teacher,whose family memebers not there.oh ya,melody and aizhen went too!i was surprised to see them there!nevermind,have fun people!(: takecare!anw,soccer and basketballing tomorrow with junfei and co.haha.but i will try not to tired myself.cause for friday,good feeling,but also cannot slack too much.top four.rahh,no matter what,i am gonna face northland even if i win or lose!why does presbyterian floorball team always meet northland or else merahans?nevermind.i am gonna play hard,have fun and enjoy the game.my top priority.went airport,makes me feel like buying a ticket to taiwan and see you immediately.i can't wait for you to be back.no place that far.
1:06 PM | Wednesday, November 29, 2006
tired.
i woke up like at 12.30.haha.damn late lah.maybe because i was tired bahh.talk on the phone with esther last night till 3.26.haha,i can remember the time hor.ya,probably was feeling real tired.i gonna bet esther is still sleeping right now.i still got half of my tution work not done!damn!nevermind,talk alot of things with esther last night.sorry for mentioning someone name esther!later,going tution,after that meeting gary and jerome then go airport find the three guys.yup.okay,thats all for now,post after i comeback from airport.byebye!i think i am like talking to myself,cause hardly anybody come read my blog.jiahao!takecare while you are at hongkong and taiwan!have a fun trip!you hate me,i guess i am right.no place that far.
10:22 PM | Tuesday, November 28, 2006
much happier.
sorry for the last post people.yeah,i guess i am right.went out around 3 plus to meet junfei at khatib.met sirbest,nic and sharlyn at macs.chat quite long over that.like 2 hours?went sirbest house take soccer ball and headed to junfei's house street soccer court.played one time of soccer and never play le.damn man,i guess i am equally useless in soccer.lost 3-2.darn,the other team was playing a fool on us lah.played basketball after that.not bad.ESTHER came to find us.okay.haha.kinda satisfied with my performance.played till 7 plus.i love defending.went to junfei's house downstairs and chat.till dad and mum came and pick me up.thats my day.tomorrow after tution going airport to send vic,jianyi and mengchao!they going miyasaki.alright,i haven't do my tution homework yet.better do now.see you people.blog later or blog tomorrow?depends.you left today without replying.damn,i really hate the feeling.i really feeling very down after what esther told me.i guess maybe after all you still don't like me,you hated me.thats what i am thinking bahh.you gotta tell me,if not i will keep on mistaking you if i am.yup.but you are away,maybe after you come back bahh.i fell in love with you just like that.(:no place that far.
1:54 AM |
i am useless.
i guess i am useless and lousy guy.i suck in everything.not good in anything.act in lots of things.i guess i learnt my lesson.i shall tell you people the truth.i don't know a lot of things.i just act out.drums,sorry sirbest and co.i don't know a single thing in instruments.nothing.don't ever tell me to join you all in jamming sessions anymore.let me learn piano first i guess.i lied in lots of things.but i somehow forget what it is.i am weak,i cry easily.like what i am doing now,i guess i am a really emotional guy.i thought i know a lot in floorball,but i guess no.i only know one trick as a player.two tricks as a goalie.i am slow.i am big size.but what can i do,thats what god wants me to be here.i get bullied by you people easily,but so?did i care?i carried on to be you people friends.your bad remarks hurts me,but so what?i carried on to become your friend.i get beaten up for some thing i find it important,but yet nobody cares.nvm,i don't feel like saying anymore.i guess this post somehow not much people will care.they will somehow continue to read and they don't care.if thats the way,i can't do anything else anymore.its my life.i gotta accept it.but its too late now.no place that far.
10:13 PM | Monday, November 27, 2006
photos!
i can't upload photos!rahh,don't like adding photos into blogger.i don't know,i am just tired.i can't take anymore pressure.i am tired,for the lsat whole week,i have been sleeping at 2 or 3.maybe its still early for a few.but i am getting tired.i don't want to take anymore pressure.i have been thinking of you.every night,i sleep so late,just to think so hard what to surprise you.but now,i don't feel like going tomorrow anymore.i don't know why,but i just don't wan to go anymore.hais.i am feeling weird now.HAIS.no place that far.
7:24 PM |
jam.
met junfei,sirbest,nicholas,spencer,jiahao,don at yishun interchange.took 800 to somewhere at yishun.the place there can take 171 de.yup,stop there and went to rythem masala music studio?forget the name already.played like for two hours.kinda fun,drum taps.):disappointed performance.think i too long never play le.i can't catch up with fast song also.nvm.went to some nearby coffee shop to eat.took 171 back to yishun.took 812 to safra.played pool then wanted to play lan,but no space and needed to wait like an hour later?headed to bowling.only i play.then i feel like i rolled 6 balls then finish already.wth right.it pasts so fast.everybody went home after that.FATE.yet again.only fate will decides us.only god will decides for us.but i got a really really bad feeling.i just got this feeling telling me that i won't be seeing you one last time before you leave.but maybe i am just over-reacting.you will sure be back,you won't leave forever.maybe one day you will.so i really want to cherish you now.but you are not letting me in.please let me in,i will only want you,nobody else.i am no longer the flirt you know.but you just think i am.whatever it is,i am telling you,its fate once again.no place that far.
10:56 AM |
whatever.
everything else still goes down,you are still the only one.you look amazing yet confusing.my life for you is blind,but what can i do.i can't keep up,i can't back down that i losing so much time. cause there is only you in my mind,i do love you.
2:16 AM |
tampines rovers vs chonburi(province) fc!
okay.went out around 12.20.met steven at sembawang mrt.then met jer and vic at yck mrt.headed to city hall,met gary there.went lunching at ljs.met farhann after eating.went to buy trints cards.haha!wanted to go padang but was rainning so went marina square walk.quite a while since we went there.went royal sporting house,sawa adidas ball.since the rain stop,don't know which bastard good idea of buying the ball!then in thee end,we fork out money buy.vic paid the most,eight bucks!so headed to padang since no rain.got touch rugby and some indian soccer carnival.okay,played at the other side of the field.then after the soccer carnival,went to the field play.damn fun lah.met jianyi and mengchao later.headed to kallang.soccer match!don't know which bastard idea to eat macs or kfc!damn,walk so long and far to the mountbatten near the cage soccer and valhall there the macs and kfc.i,gary,steven and farhann ate macs.the rest ate kfc.saw yiru,enrico and baoren at macs.think got under-19s trg at valhall.the four of us went stadium first,then when about to reach stadium,then remember victor ticket with me.so the three assholes went in first,then waited for the four bloody bastards to come.so long lah.went in and the first half is boring.second half was more exciting and more action-packed.full-time tampines2-2chonburi.tampines were two goals down,they never give up and came back.chonburi got a player sent off.then,extra time first period tampines muratovic sent off!then second period chonburi got another player sent off.the ref is damn lousy,anyhow give cards.preferred shamsul maidin!then the very last minute aliff shafaein scored!final score tampines rovers3-2chonburi(province) fc.we all wanted to watch penalties!but the last goal was so nice lah.too bad.last match at national stadium before its demolished.its damn big!very scary on top lah!took lots of pics,upload it some other times.went home after that.had a real fun day.everybody voice all like gone lah!shout here shout there!tomorrow going jamming with sirbest they all.gonna be fun,i think.four more days away from carnival.(:yay!carnival is getting nearer,hope my good feeling to this carnival can bring us far.i really want top four but seeing trg how we perform,i kinda wondering.but just hope that this good feeling can let us play well.i really want top four.no matter how,i want to win big.it may be a dream too far,but i doubt so.gurl,you are leaving in one day's time.time really past so fast.i hope that it will past faster when youa re abroad.cause i am so sure i am gonna miss you like crazy.only pics pics pics.i want to see the real face of yours.i really want to give you a surprise,but i think can't bahh.we shall depends on fate.if fate really wants us to meet before you leave,we defintely meet each other de.but if its destined not to let us meet,then i guess this is how its gonna be.i can't change the fact right?but i just want you to know,i love and miss you badly badly badly!i just can't do without you!you are simply my precious one.my one and only.cause i can only love one gurl and thas simply you.i don't know whether you are gonna read my blog before you leave.i hope you will.i really hope you will.but too bad i know you won't.hais.this is what it meant to be.))):anyway,have a safe trip,take cure gurl!I LOVE YOU.you didn't know,you pretend not to know.I MISS YOU.you don't want to.HAIS.HAIS.HAIS.HAIS.HAIS.no place that far.
10:42 PM | Saturday, November 25, 2006
there it goes again.
okay,damn bored lah today.my saturdays is always with the gays or else is with div 2.now they working,no more div 2.i am at home once again.went out with my small little cousins and aunties to far east.bought a zoo-york t-shirt and a ripcurl pencil case.rahh.i want a quiksilver,ripcurl or volcom wallet.anyone will do.i want to change my wallet,i somehow dislike it now?went newton circle for dinner.trust me the food there is damn nice,but one thing is the food there is damn expensive.they cheating angmohs money lah.nevermind.reached home like at 9.13.tomorrow going to buy cards at trints.then going to expo for don't know what adidas offers?then going to national stadium for RHB cup.the best players of singapore not here.watch also not nice.nevermind,free ticket what.i gonna like charged and put songs inside the zen mp3 now.the sony one sucks like hell.everything is going with a change.i kinda realised somethings now.i am sure ia m not too late to realise it now.you never even care about me loving you.whatever it is now,it has changed.you have changed,those kind of feelings you are giving me now,its not last time.no more.you are just a friend to me those kind of feeling.why did that good feeling changed so much?\tell me why gurl.i hate to see you leave and give those kind of feeling.):no place that far.
10:16 PM | Friday, November 24, 2006
the love album!
went to orchard and find gary,jer and jianyi.met them at tiasa.jianyi changed blade.damn,i wanted buy ball,cashier spoil.wtf.nvm.headed to don't know what building beside one road across shaw house.went to ripcurl shop.in the jer didn't bought his volcom pencil case.haha.headed to shaw for dinner?had kfc.jianyi left us.after kfc,walk to wisma atria.walk around there.and 3 hours gone just like that.fast lah.really fast.headed home.but mum called me to meet hurr at northpoint.again northpoint.sian.then walk around alone.then saw westlife new album!damn nice.wanted to buy.yay!then persuaded mum to buy it.i gonna like keep listening.but mum says no more of stuffs until she got money.that means its like until end of the year?wth?this shit man.damn!nvm.popular a while then went buy food home.ate again,was still hungry since i ddin't eat breakfast.headed home afterwards.going buy books and long pants tomorrow.i can finally get to see you.there goes my crumpler!and your nike bag.rahh!nvm,i will save hard to buy your nike bag first!no matter you are more important then anything.i am happy i can get to see you tomorrow.i really wants to see you.BADLY.no place that far.
4:19 PM |
headache.
damn,woke up with a big headache.damn pain lah.but kinda okay now.woke up at 12 plus.haha,half a day gone.but thats how i kill time when i am not going out.but i am going out later.haha.meeting jer and jianyi like soon.then meet gary later.yup.going to buy jer volcom pencil case and a new floorball ball.haha.i can't sleep man.but my head still hurts.but anyway,blog when i come back.see you people!i just keep missing you.but do you even give a damn?no place that far.
10:36 PM | Thursday, November 23, 2006
bored lah!
okay,feeling real sleepy.but i can't sleep!like sleep will like 30 mins later wake up!damn man!okay,if anybody got read yesterday newspaper.the headline news.about one rjc guy and one acs(barker rd) guy they fighting for one kc gurl.oh okay,i think its like damn lame story.and that gurl happens to be pearlin classmate.okay,thats pure coincidence.haha.alright.i am damn bored at night!i don't know why.okay.gotta go people.blog tomorrow.hm,tomorrow gonna be another bored day of don't know where to go again?i don't know man.sirbest,nic and junfei!sorry guys.i don't feel like jamming.i will wait till i learn bass slightly better then i join you all alright?then jiahao can be drummer.so yeah,sorry people!I WILL LAUGH LIKE CRAZY WHENEVER I SAW AMELIA SOH!okay,amelia has that real cool look.that can laugh my head off!okay lah,don't fool you already lah.somehow i really do miss you badly.show me some care,will you?):no place that far.
7:11 PM |
kinda suay day?
woke up late today.like 8.20.supposed to meet gary and jerome at 8.45.but saw joshua long at sembawang.then was rushing for the train.he dropped his wallet.there goes the train.damn.nvm.so the other two gays went ahead first.but i reached skool earlier then them.-.-.okay.damn,had the what teacher workshop in the hall.so yeah,had to train at cca room.play 3-on-3.okay,kinda like angry over my performance?but after all,i am a keeper what.but i just hope top 4 for the carnival.i don't know man.i got this very good feeling.but i wonder why.just never had this good feeling before.maybe its because the carnival is held at valhall?lols.should be bahh.haha.train keeper for a while.kinda like it,made ltos of saves.happy i guess?nahh.the new trick is useful,but i am still slow in reaction.bad in diving.how to make it for national squad?train hard.or else my dreams are dashed.plus the trick needs the keeper to be quick,fast.i don't know.i am losing confidence in being a good keeper.okay,after trainning headed to market.ate and went gary house there to play soccer.damn bloody hot weather.wth lah,we got caught by the police while walking to soccer court again.this time is for no reason.victor thinks that someone had just stolen a person phone.cause the police finds out our phone serial number.okay,weird though.then continue with soccer.had lots of fun.but was already worn out by floorball.damn tired.legs shivering.but its better now.just purely tiredness.think i go get some sleep now.maybe blogging later.depends.bye people!okay,i didn't really like today.i keep knocking in to people or things.lazy to say who and what i knock on.too much.maybe today just wasn't the day.i really hope to see you one last time before you leave.i really can't bear to see you leave.thinking that next year we are different class.i really don't know what to do man.i kept on thinking about the future.seems like it ain't good at all.with people in your class.i really think i stand no chance.although,now i really have no chance.especially when i have a good friend in your class,which you somehow like i think?maybe not.maybe i am just anyhow saying.okay,this really sound crappy.nvm,i just hope to see you one last time,i really do.i miss you!no place that far.
11:45 PM | Wednesday, November 22, 2006
random.
Seven qualities that i want my potential gf to have:-love me.-honest.-nice and cute.-must like floorball too.-tanned.-sportive.-caring.seven things that scare me:-very scary movies.-dogs.-bugs.-animals.-my good friends lieing to me.-when the time stops.-when i die(what will happen).seven random songs at the moment:-angels and girlfriends(five for fighting).-just the girl(click five)-a thousand miles(vanessa carlton)-frostbite(michael learns to rock)-walk away(blue)-summertime of our lives(A1)-picture perfect(ashley parker angel)seven things i like most:-FLOORBALL.-good friends.-wakeboarding.-talking to pearlin on the phone.(:-hurr.-airhooks!-parties/overnights stays.seven important things in my life:-FLOORBALL.-water.-food.-good friends.-com.-time.-drums.seven random facts about me:-kinda crazy.-impatient.-gets angry easily.-likes floorball.-talkactive.-sportive.-gets tired easily.seven things to do before i die:-get married with one i truly love.-national team floorball.-talk on the phone with pearlin.-plays one last time of floorball.-i don't want to think anymore.it really makes me very scared.this feeling is very weird.seven things i can do:-play floorball.-crap with friends.-hang out.-talk.-sleep.-eat.-play sports.seven things i say the most.-damn.-what the fuck.-crap.-then.-but.-ya.-some bad words.oops.seven clebrities crushes:- i am not psycho lah.random boredness.no place that far.
8:45 PM |
okay,finally i gotta admit have a good day.
alright,had a fine day today.haha.slightly happy.met jer,gary and jianyi.went orchard,lunch first.headed to tiasa afterwards.damn the rain,was too big to go over to tiasa.so stayed at wheelock to play xbox 360 a while.saw yanyan cousin!haha.but she doesn't recognise me!rain gets smaller,headed to tiasa.yiru working at tiasa.lols.okay,spend like an hour there.jerome changed his blade.quite striking.orange and black.i bought the unihoc player(tws) 26-29.damn cool.was headache over choosing unihoc player or unihoc evo.but choose the player.gonna changed to fat pipe or blast grip.most probably fat pipe.must go all the way down to tampines to change it!nvm.okay,went to mrt,don't know where to go.in the end headed back home.they all wanna sleep.think because of getting ready for tomorrow trainning,maybe bahh.tomorrow got trainning lah.finally,skool trainning.last year,also not even one.haha.okay.better have hall,or else we all gonna kill joshua long.and one more good news(for me lah).floorball carnival is gonna be played in valhall!predicted it.cause its at kallang,then valhall also at kallang.okay.cool.9am must report.first day.confirm can play two matches.so yeah.haha.cool.come support us!lols.kididng lah.but who wants can come.but quite far.hm,yeah,good news but a somehow good day.what about tomorrow.bad one?think so bahh.hais.i like my new stick.its cool.okay,rubbish crap.who doesn't like new stuffs.i somehow think 11 days.wow,pretty long huh.i will be waiting for you to comeback.no matter how.okay,this stuff comes deep down from my heart.maybe you would think i am some sort lameshit person.but yeah,this what i really meant for you.anyway,i only had three words in mind.i love you.(:no place that far.
12:49 PM |
yes.
okay,kinda like write a note to my mum last night.she saw it morning today.haha,guess what my dad agreed to let me buy the sticks.love my parents lah!yay!okay,goodie.i am happy alright.damn,maybe after all today isn't such a bad day.but you never know.a happy start,ends badly.i don't know.damn,uncle coming later.scared,don't know why.alright so heading to orchard later with gary and jerome.haha.gosh,i can't sponsor you much hor jerome!okay,i gotta do my tution homework this week.haha,don't want like yesterday.monday night like 10 plus then i started doing.rushed all the way lah.thats why 90% wrong.okay,later then blog more people!kinda happy.but i know it will not be a happy one after all.but be happy till i can now.or else guess later maybe no chance le.haha,yup.i miss you so.can your trip be shorter?guess thats your fun in this holidays.shalln't interupt.but i really hope you could go like lesser days.hais.nvm,its alright.just have fun i guess.i love you so.no place that far.
11:00 PM | Tuesday, November 21, 2006
damn,why is it just so hard.
rahh,just had a bad day.went tution,scolded by teacher because of late.then get scolded because of linear and quadratic equations.okay,i gotta admit,i am bad in this.i hate it man.i really feeling like spilling my tears out.damn,that feeling really make someone feel very bad,i don't know.after that,met junfei,sirbest and nic at yishun.went long john eat.then went back yishun mrt to meet esther and met sharlyn at bus interchange.headed to safra.went to play pool.the two gurls went to some restaurant to eat.then wanted to play bowling,but need to wait so sirbest decided not to play.went to look for the gurls.they had their meals real slow.so went to sit down at the safra entrance there to wait for them.waited like half an hour.around there.then went to near interchange there and eat dessert.after eating,went sirbest house.that where my headache came.pain.till when leaving then the pain kinda subside.but stil got those kind of side effect.guess thats lack of sleep.headed northpoint,took money from mum to eat dinner with rest.then went burger king.met mum after that.then dad send us home.just didn't have the best of days.get scolded.headache.now i want a blade but yet tough to get one.i really hate it when i have no money to get one and ask my mum for like such a huge sum of money.rahh!hais.i just hate it when i need to get a huge sum of money from my mum.i was just thinking why didn't i save money.and why didn't i study hard and get the 300 bucks of free money from the government.then i have lots of money to spend.like buy a stick,crumpler,knee pad,everything i wanted.what if thats the case,isn't that good.hais,i just hate it.tomorrow will not be a good day i guess.i believe it will not be one.anbody wanna bet with me? i suddenly think of you while i was walking.
i don't know why,that moment.
your face really saddens me.
especially thinking that you are leaving next week,i am just can't believe time past so fast.
why do everything have to past so fast?holidays past so fast.its like almost my whole holidays is a bad one.can't be like everyday happy?where i can have fun?even have fun studying?just have fun,but why must life be so demanding.i really don't like it.i just wanna have a life that is fun,easy,relax,happy one.isn't that good?maybe sometimes,it will be bad,but most of the time good?hais.this isn't life.i don't know why,my life is a fucked up one.just bad.i hate my ownself.no place that far,
9:25 AM |
bored.
haha.alright.changed my blogskin.thanks chongling.(:steven came over for a while to use com.yup.played ps2 a while.beat him 3-0.yay!very bored lah at home.tomorrow maybe going to safra again.with junfei they all.pool again,haha.i want play bowling leh.feel like,after playing last time.think bowling much more fun than pool.still homework not done,hais.somehow i do miss you.but yeah,seeing you gives me inspiration.you are my inspiration after all.(:no place that far.
4:12 AM |
what a day.
went marina square yesterday with gary,jer and steven.went raffles city food junction for lunch.after that walk around citylink,headed for esplanade later.sat at the merlion there and rest a while.the view is really spectacular.it's really nice.guys out there who wanna bring your gurlfriends to somewhere romantic.there would be a good place,haha,but i guess you all should know lah,its like duh!walked to padang.pearlin passed by there!got soccer match.we thought SCC was having trainning.but turn out to be SCC vs NUS.before the match we kicked a while.haha.the ball quite nice lah.then send steven to work and went back to watch the match.quite nice.we decided to join SCC.yeah,the jersey,letterings everything is so nice.the field at padang is nice too.second half we took a ball,played around.after that we went one corner to play.haha!jer(c.ronaldo) shoots a free kick,its going in...oh a wonderful fingertip save by gary(tomasz kusczack).okay,thats shot quite funny lah.jerome was like why it didn't go in.gary was like yes,that a good save!haha.okay,and lots of more shots.very nice lah.if i had taken that shot down.bet you people will say oh,what a miss!wth,while i was playing soccer,pearlin is eating my ikea chicken wings!you still owe me haagen daas!haha.alright,steven coming my house later to use com.haha.who wants to play soccer at junfei house there de soccer court?i am seriously getting bored.tomorrow tution,my homework not done.hais.the fun time really ends fast.pearlin,i know your secrets!haha.i will say!haha!kidding lah.damn funny lah,your secrets!haha!i have been waiting,hope that you talk to me today.i really miss talking to you.seriously,its really been tough not talking to you for like two days only.hais,a bored day at home.gotta be thinking about you today.i am so sure.i have set my mind.i love you.(:thats it.no place that far.
4:33 PM | Sunday, November 19, 2006
i knew somehow this is how you will reply.
went out at 1 plus.went junfei house.sorry!supposed to meet you people at 1 but yeah after chalet no pants.hm,yup.but found out that esther and sharlyn later then me.nvm.then cycled to safra.played pool like two hours.then played lan.went home after that.random day.tomorrow not sure going where.yup.i guess thats it.yeah,maybe thats how you feel.sorry for ending your day like that.i guess i don't have that luck bahh.no matter what,this time i am waiting for you.cause the feeling since last year,its really really very strong.its like never stop,never ever changed.hais,but thats how it gonna be.i can't changed it.sorry though.baby,i dedicate my love to you tonight.
5:25 AM |
i don't wanna lose you.
today is your day.hm,i don't know why this time i am so desperately to have you.you are just like that important missing piece of my life.everything have been good,now you are just the one i am lacking of.now i really have forgetten the other hurr,its you.nothing but you.yes,perhaps i gotta find some right time to tell you,I LOVE YOU.yes.maybe sometimes.but i am scared of rejection and dejection.i am scared of your rejection and later getting dejected.i am scared you forever won't talk to me.i really won't want that to happen.i have been through lots of tough time.but yeah,certainly,you are my only one.i do love you a lot c.HAPPY BIRHTDAY CHONGLING!stand by me,nobody knows.
2:58 PM | Saturday, November 18, 2006
your birthday tomorrow!
okay,so hows chalet went.day one,actually was planning to go soccer match with jer,gary and farhann.but palestine didn't make it to singapore.so yeah,cancelled.went chalet around evening.7 like that,qinghai and junfei met me at pasir ris.and yanmei and few people went changi village eat.then me,junfei and qinghai went whitesands eat.yup.then headed back to downtown and junfei send me back to chalet.only wilson chng was there.the rest went to eat.so yeah,then at night went cycling around.don,thanks for lending me your bike ah!played soccer around 1 plus am.quite fun ehs!bathed,bingyao and i kinda try sleep.but yeah,too noisy below and then can't sleep.went down joined the rest.they stayed at the chalet.then me,bingyao and andy went to eat macs.went to look for the rest watching sunrise.day two,found the people.wanted to go playground.but only me,qinghai,junfei and esther went.played around a while,went back chalet.then going to wild wild wet.thought last time is 11 open but now changed to 1.so yup,went to eat at foodcourt.after that top-up funkey card.went back chalet.then sirbest,qinghai and junfei pei me go take jelly and the forks,spoons and cups from my dad.yeah,then reached chalet immediately went wild wild wet.so cool lah,not much people.but still very fun.haha.tsunami was fun.i guess that was the best of all.the slide up was fun too.but too fast,then like nothing happen like that.tsunami i and junfei work so hard luh!they seperate we get everybody back!class spirit!haha!never give up!yeah,we made it together once!quite good le.yup,then slack at tsunami to wait for the next one.kinda isolate myself,thought about really lots of things.will i really get hurr?is she gonna be my number one?am i gonna be with hurr forever?hais,a happy start to the day,turn out to be a bad ending.then actually supposed to like take funkey card out,but i left it inside.this is crap man,and then waited for 30 plus minutes.sorry chongling(: and bingyao!i don't know that funkey card must be taken out.yeah.went chalet,bathed and went upstairs and slept a while.qinghai woke me up,but didn't feel like eating.the fire so small and they cook the food raw lah.wanted to buy cup noodles,but no hot water in chalet so went foodcourt eat with junfei.yeah,pathetic.lots of stuffs carried throughout the night.shalln't elaborate much.after those stuffs,we went back to play soccer again!wilson chng worst defeat.7-1.lols.haha.nice play lah,but blisters is blistering through my legs,but having fun.so yeah,didn't care about the blisters.yup,bathed and slept.but its on the ground floor.nvm,better then nothing.yup,woke second earliest?don't know lah,some wanted to sleep,but pretend to sleep.also couldn't get back to sleep lah.day three,went for breakfast with qinghai,junfei and sirbest.then ask chongling whether she want something,she said no!haha!then she said the chalet left with only she,sharlyn,esther and aizhen!the rest all went home!then saw them,wah,really so early everybody go back.went back chalet,aizhen left us.then the chalet getting smellier and smellier!tabuleh tahan!the four guys went on top to sleep.the gurls still can sleep below no matter how smelly its was lah.we(guys) chatted a lot.didn't have so much laughter among us in skool.but yeah chalet was a different thing.then qinghai climbed the ceiling and then fell down when coming down.then hurt his butt.damn funny!but yet dangerous!then went back to the upstairs to laugh.then out of the sudden went quiet and me,junfei and qinghai slept.stupid sirbest,go take pics of us sleeping!damn man!then cleared up and left chalet.all went home.then met up again at 2.30 at sembawang to go watch movie.only esther didn't turn up.CASINO ROYALE.hm,nice show,but yeah tired then really makes me feel like sleeping lah.but recommended movie.after movie,sharlyn left for cell,sirbest and chongling(: headed home,i,qinghai and junfei went safra play pool and lan.but very tired.took 859 back,miss my stop.if not for my mother calling me,i wouldn't know that i reach.my mother really called at the right time,reached sembawang interchange just in time.so yeah,lucky lah,or else i guess will be very paiseh.thats how i ended my chalet and today.(:just didn't have that good chalet i think.i really want to celebrate with you your birthday.haha,maybe not bahh.i am quite happy that i really found the gurl i really wanted?yeah,truly wanted.no matter how,sad that next year we different class le!hais,what if history can take u-turn.make me study hard and can smae class as you!but its too late now.i really feel like protecting you and never let you go.hope would really consider me again.once more.that all i ask from you.its been somehow more then a year plus since we were last together.but i am confidence i gonna be back with you.but please do not let me get disappointed once more.i really don't want.i was stupid to ask for break-up last time.truly i am.i regretted that decision big time.just hope you will give that oppturnity to be with you once again.my angel.<3!(:stand by me,nobody knows.